Monday, February 23, 2009
난 살아가오
난 이제 살아가기로 했다오
난 이제 사랑하며 살기로 했다오
남들의 시선과 내 마음의 조급함도
흘러간 일로 생각하며 살아가기로 했다오
난 이제부터 연명이 아닌
내게 주어진 목적의 삶을 살기로 했다오
스스로에게 미안한 삶은 이제 살아가지 않기로 했다오
Sunday, February 22, 2009
삶과 연명의 차이
오늘 문득 다시 하루하루를 열.심.히. 살아볼까~ 하는 생각도 하여보았으나, 역시 그 생각들 자체로 KO 당하는걸 보니 아무래도 체력부족. 운동부족. 근성부족.
태연의 '들리나요'를 한 7시간 연속으로 들어버리면서 역시 음악이란 대단하다는 생각이 든다. 속을 송두리째 뒤집어놓는 이 멜로디가 만드는 선율의 카리스마. 89년생이 어떻게 이런...
이글은 제목과 전혀 관련 없어 보인다.
태연의 '들리나요'를 한 7시간 연속으로 들어버리면서 역시 음악이란 대단하다는 생각이 든다. 속을 송두리째 뒤집어놓는 이 멜로디가 만드는 선율의 카리스마. 89년생이 어떻게 이런...
이글은 제목과 전혀 관련 없어 보인다.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Constant reminder to self: why?
WHY?
It's a simple and over-used phrase we use almost meaninglessly and sometimes the intention is not in trying to find an answer but rather in the question itself.
Do we have to ask, 'Why?' Why do we ask 'why'?
Then, why is WHY important?
The answer is simple: Without the 'WHYs' we may live without understanding the meaning of it or the purpose of it.
For every action, I used to ask WHY? It was a way for me to check whether my action was based my own desires which may go against the ultimate 'right' or truth.
By asking ourselves, 'WHY?' we sometimes can get to our true intentions. We may come up with some superficial, diplomatic, politically correct answers. Then how can we be true to ourselves?
Just wait a little bit, and ask again! 'Why?' By simply repeating the question, we are now playing an interrogation game. It gives an impression to you that the other 'you' didn't buy your first explanation, and now the other 'you' are asking you the same question yet again, implying you'd better come up with a true answer this time. You may resist a few more times, but eventually you may give in. 'Okay okay. the real reason is... blah blah.'
Why am I writing about 'Why'? My first response would be 'It's a truly wonderful thing to re-examine yourself and keep yourself from digressing... ' but then, I am sure I have ulterior motives. Maybe I don't ask myself 'Why?'. Maybe I WANT TO be asking myself these questions yet fail. By writing about, maybe I am trying to give an impression to myself that I do these things.
One thing I learned the hard way is momentum is extremely important. Momentum may be replaced by 'habits' perhaps. Once you cross a line, there is a stamp on you that can't be erased. Once you kill someone, you will forever be a murderer. Once you have an affair, you will never be able to escape from your past actions. But if you haven't committed any of these things, even small things like stealing, that itself sometimes keeps you going and keep you away from doing these.
As I am writing this pointless essay, I honestly can't figure out why I am writing about this... maybe I am just not sleepy at 4am and really bored. Maybe I just wanted to update the blog.
But after asking myself 'WHY' a few times, I realized, I am just really frustrated and having a hard time, yet I am just making futile efforts to cope with it by trying to say something that is seemingly totally unrelated yet desperately trying to imprint a hidden message in the essay by twisting words that would suggest one thing, and have it suggest another.. so that no one can find out what the true intension is.
It's time to go to bed... but it's been a while since I wrote these random things ... as I remember last time I did it was in college during the Cyworld Era, the good old days.
It's a simple and over-used phrase we use almost meaninglessly and sometimes the intention is not in trying to find an answer but rather in the question itself.
Do we have to ask, 'Why?' Why do we ask 'why'?
Then, why is WHY important?
The answer is simple: Without the 'WHYs' we may live without understanding the meaning of it or the purpose of it.
For every action, I used to ask WHY? It was a way for me to check whether my action was based my own desires which may go against the ultimate 'right' or truth.
By asking ourselves, 'WHY?' we sometimes can get to our true intentions. We may come up with some superficial, diplomatic, politically correct answers. Then how can we be true to ourselves?
Just wait a little bit, and ask again! 'Why?' By simply repeating the question, we are now playing an interrogation game. It gives an impression to you that the other 'you' didn't buy your first explanation, and now the other 'you' are asking you the same question yet again, implying you'd better come up with a true answer this time. You may resist a few more times, but eventually you may give in. 'Okay okay. the real reason is... blah blah.'
Why am I writing about 'Why'? My first response would be 'It's a truly wonderful thing to re-examine yourself and keep yourself from digressing... ' but then, I am sure I have ulterior motives. Maybe I don't ask myself 'Why?'. Maybe I WANT TO be asking myself these questions yet fail. By writing about, maybe I am trying to give an impression to myself that I do these things.
One thing I learned the hard way is momentum is extremely important. Momentum may be replaced by 'habits' perhaps. Once you cross a line, there is a stamp on you that can't be erased. Once you kill someone, you will forever be a murderer. Once you have an affair, you will never be able to escape from your past actions. But if you haven't committed any of these things, even small things like stealing, that itself sometimes keeps you going and keep you away from doing these.
As I am writing this pointless essay, I honestly can't figure out why I am writing about this... maybe I am just not sleepy at 4am and really bored. Maybe I just wanted to update the blog.
But after asking myself 'WHY' a few times, I realized, I am just really frustrated and having a hard time, yet I am just making futile efforts to cope with it by trying to say something that is seemingly totally unrelated yet desperately trying to imprint a hidden message in the essay by twisting words that would suggest one thing, and have it suggest another.. so that no one can find out what the true intension is.
It's time to go to bed... but it's been a while since I wrote these random things ... as I remember last time I did it was in college during the Cyworld Era, the good old days.
Thursday, February 5, 2009
The Story of Froyo
Once upon a time there was a land consisted of yogurt.
Just like humans, they had different personalities thus different texture and taste.
Ever being so lonely doing nothing but sit there all day, similar yogurts decided to live close to each other, and eventually they formed their own yogurt kingdom over time. Out of many, Yoplait's land grew quite large and became the largest yogurt kingdom in the yogurt world. Although the world was dominated by Yoplait, there were smaller kingdoms like Dannon, and a home-grown local version of YaKuRuTu in the land of morning calm.
Like Earth, Yogurt land was also revolving around the sun! The yogurt in the Arctic area was so poor and unpopular, they could not afford any heating at home. Those poor yogurts began to freeze and formed the Frozen Yogurt, which they called themselves 'Froyos'.
These Froyos started to gather together and the evil global warming threatened their lives. Froyos, despite the turmoil of the economy and global meltdown, fought like brave men, and began to have children. The first was sweet child, and they named it TCBY. It was a popular baby for a while, and others began to follow TCBY's sweet froyo trend. However, their first son, TCBY, was not a very strong boy. Often sick and malnourished, it eventually died. Deeply sadden by the death of their baby, Froyos had a second child, who was a bit more sour than sweet, and leaner than fattening. They named him 'Red Mango.' ReMang was born originally in the land of Yakurutu, so had the same Yakurutu citizenship, and it was prospering there. Delighted by the healthy growth of their second child, another parent was inspired and gave birth to their verion of ReMang, called, 'Pink Berry.' Not wanting a fight with ReMang's parents, Pink Berry settled in a far away land, which humans often called the land of opportunity. While it was still not so well known to the rest of the world, there was a slutty pretty girl named, Hilton, who came from Paris, and she often hung out with Pink Berry as she liked her so much. This Hilton girl happened to be a popular kid in school, and many people started to follow her and hung out with Pink Berry, making it even more popular than ReMang. Just like Adam and Eve and their sons, Froyos began to multiply and there were many new kids on the block like Yolato, Berry Berry, Yogo Berry, and so on, but what caught the heart of an innocent prince from India, named Doojohn, was Yorganic. This particular Froyo had a personality of a tanginess as well as a bit of sourness just like a say chim tay gee girl who is not merely janmangful. Doojohn and Yorganic met about 2 months ago when Doojohn was just walking down the street and fell in love with Yorganic at first sight. Doojohn started to hang out with her every single day, day and night. However, Doojohn turned psycho and began to freeze Yorganic in his own freezer so he can have her any time he wants. He even put multiple Yorganic clones in his freezer at a time. She tried to resist, but the evil Doojohn was too evil and powerful! She cried out everyday to let her out, but evil Doojohn never listened to her and ended up eating her by scooping her flesh with a spoon, flesh by flesh, spoon by spoon.
The End.
Just like humans, they had different personalities thus different texture and taste.
Ever being so lonely doing nothing but sit there all day, similar yogurts decided to live close to each other, and eventually they formed their own yogurt kingdom over time. Out of many, Yoplait's land grew quite large and became the largest yogurt kingdom in the yogurt world. Although the world was dominated by Yoplait, there were smaller kingdoms like Dannon, and a home-grown local version of YaKuRuTu in the land of morning calm.
Like Earth, Yogurt land was also revolving around the sun! The yogurt in the Arctic area was so poor and unpopular, they could not afford any heating at home. Those poor yogurts began to freeze and formed the Frozen Yogurt, which they called themselves 'Froyos'.
These Froyos started to gather together and the evil global warming threatened their lives. Froyos, despite the turmoil of the economy and global meltdown, fought like brave men, and began to have children. The first was sweet child, and they named it TCBY. It was a popular baby for a while, and others began to follow TCBY's sweet froyo trend. However, their first son, TCBY, was not a very strong boy. Often sick and malnourished, it eventually died. Deeply sadden by the death of their baby, Froyos had a second child, who was a bit more sour than sweet, and leaner than fattening. They named him 'Red Mango.' ReMang was born originally in the land of Yakurutu, so had the same Yakurutu citizenship, and it was prospering there. Delighted by the healthy growth of their second child, another parent was inspired and gave birth to their verion of ReMang, called, 'Pink Berry.' Not wanting a fight with ReMang's parents, Pink Berry settled in a far away land, which humans often called the land of opportunity. While it was still not so well known to the rest of the world, there was a slutty pretty girl named, Hilton, who came from Paris, and she often hung out with Pink Berry as she liked her so much. This Hilton girl happened to be a popular kid in school, and many people started to follow her and hung out with Pink Berry, making it even more popular than ReMang. Just like Adam and Eve and their sons, Froyos began to multiply and there were many new kids on the block like Yolato, Berry Berry, Yogo Berry, and so on, but what caught the heart of an innocent prince from India, named Doojohn, was Yorganic. This particular Froyo had a personality of a tanginess as well as a bit of sourness just like a say chim tay gee girl who is not merely janmangful. Doojohn and Yorganic met about 2 months ago when Doojohn was just walking down the street and fell in love with Yorganic at first sight. Doojohn started to hang out with her every single day, day and night. However, Doojohn turned psycho and began to freeze Yorganic in his own freezer so he can have her any time he wants. He even put multiple Yorganic clones in his freezer at a time. She tried to resist, but the evil Doojohn was too evil and powerful! She cried out everyday to let her out, but evil Doojohn never listened to her and ended up eating her by scooping her flesh with a spoon, flesh by flesh, spoon by spoon.
The End.
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