Pleasant surprise vs Unpleasant surprise

Living my life for the last 27 years, I've come across many pleasant surprises and unpleasant surprises. Any unexpected event would count as a surprise. Then what would determine what is pleasant and what is not?

I wish there were an absolute standard I could peak at, or maybe an ideal, unbiased, omniscient, and fair judge who can determine what should be pleasant and unpleasant.
As an absolute follower type, I would simply apply those rules and use them as a guide, yet I still haven't found anyone who would make a decision for me on whether I should take this unexpected event as a pleasant incident that stimulates my heart or as a depressant that only stimulates my dark side.

Looking back on several instances of these events, I conclude it's totally biased on one's feelings. It's not something that is based on 'reason' but 'emotion,' which is quite striking to me as I categorize myself as a type A, gong dol ee, nerd proud, logical, reasonable, principle-oriented being who gives absolutely no regards to normal people's kind of joke and insist on my kind of jokes, which are rather informative or simply 'unexpected' in the situation or out of context yet somewhat related, which I often find amusing while others simply find no connection from my newly provided information to what was being discussed at that time and ignore completely.

What I generally enjoy - like meeting an old friend would be a pleasant surprise. But if someone reacts to me in a completely unexpected way, which is not in line with my philosophy or what I pursue as an ideal state of the world, it would count as an unpleasant surprise.

Depending on what kind of reaction to surprise you 'generate,' you may be able to make it a pleasant event if the surprise is in fact in the borderline. But what if it's blatantly unpleasant? As a mature person, I ought to look at the big picture, control my emotion, think of the context and my reaction's impact to the current situation, and even have the insight to determine which way I want to sway the other person, and employ the best persuasive yet subtle mechanism to handle the situation in a way I want. However, being as immature as I am, I often 'think' I am suppressing my emotions and talk in neutral tone, while the other would instantly notice what is obviously being conveyed through my not so bland physiognomy and abnormally neutral, or cold, tone, making the situation only worse, accomplishing nothing but more agony and pain for everyone.

In any event, it is always a blessing to have people around me who cheer me up, and show the other side of the world. While living in yorganic land, I would have never guessed there was a yolicious place, had I not been given this blessing of meeting wonderful people.

God seems to be giving me messages these days through different ways but pretty clear ways, which are a bit too personal and shameful to talk about, but I have been resisting very hard, twisting my own words to get around the promise I made to Him when I was desperate. I suggest we should not make easy promises to God as he WILL remember it...and frequently remind us when we fail to carry it out.
very inttaraasting......

Suffering, Perserverance, Character, Hope, Love

Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance;
perseverance, character; and character, hope.
And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

-Romans 5:3 ~ 5:5


다만 이뿐 아니라 우리가 환난 중에도 즐거워하나니 이는 환난은 인내를,
인내는 연단을, 연단은 소망을 이루는 줄 앎이로다
소망이 부끄럽게 아니함은 우리에게 주신 성령으로 말미암아 하나님의 사랑이 우리 마음에 부은바 됨이니
-로마서 5장3절-5절

환난 -> 인내 -> 역량 -> 소망 -> 사랑

결국 인간은 극대화된 고난이란 상황을 경험하고 극복함으로 말미암아 그 그릇이 커지고 소망을 키우며 사랑이 많은 사람이 된다는 결론. Then, how much adversity have I gone through, and what have I done today towards my dream? Do I have hope? Do I have love?
I am at a baby stage... haven't even got the perserverance yet. now, it's time to form my character and be hopeful and love others. Yes!

Goldman Sachs CIOs

오늘 골드만 삭스 CIO 둘과 함께 1.5 시간 동안 데이트를 하면서 느낀점은..
그들은 역시 외계인이라는 사실.
가만히 아무말 안하고 있어도 풍기는 그 뽀스 와 Aura.
갖은 자들만이 갖을 수 있는 여유로움. 부익부 현상이 어김없이 나타난 또 하나의 현실이다.
(방금 이 위을 문장을 쓰며 '갖은 자만이' 라고 썼다가 혼자 피식 웃음)
역시 보스를 괜히 대갈통이라고 부르지 않는다는 사실도 또 깨달았다.
정말로 대가리에 든게 엄청 많다. 뭘 물어봐도 다 알고 있는 그 엄청난 encyclopedic 대가리.
역시 인간은 큰 물에서 놀아야하는 듯. 높이가 다른 상자안의 빈대들과 마찬가지.
인간의 Adaptive한 천성이 결국 그사람의 환경에 따라 그 인간의 역량과 잠재력의 현실화를 좌지우지하는 듯.
하지만 역시 일단 무조건 외우고 대가리에 이것저것 다 배우는게 첫번째인 것 같음.
오케이. 그럼 일단 잠을....-_-;;